Jan. 19, 2014 Journal Entry Facebook is Pointless

I've come to realize posting my thoughts on Facebook is really pointless.  If I'm wanting people to understand what I'm going through, they won't.  If I'm wanting support, it's not the kind I need.  I have no clue who is reading it unless they respond--which few do, or "Like" which is becoming fewer and fewer.  I realize when I post something positive, I get more "support" but when something leans more on the side of "raw" it's less.  I don't want that to influence what I write because my feelings are real, my grief is real, and they are mine.  My "Friends" on facebook were making it about them.  Clinging to every horrific detail in the beginning when "they" were so devastated.  Sending encouragement, calling, coming to the door because "they" were wanting comfort.  But now, "they" are moving on and now choosing what they read, what they like, what they ignore.  It's not and never was about support the grieving mother at all.  So I decided to start a blog.  It will be private until I finish writing up to Gracie's story.  I remembered I started a blog years ago but didn't get further than that.  I was able to find it last night and it actually had one pending post from Oct. 2008.  It was a post announcing we were expecting a baby in May.  It affirmed to me, I need to Blog our story to share one day, to keep a record, who knows really.  But I'm going to start.