Gracie's preschool graduation. I am so appreciative of Teacher Misty and all the Appleseed moms making Gracie a part of it. The tree held the place for Gracie tonight and will be planted at the preschool.
May 23, 2013 My Journal Entry:
Tonight was Gracie's preschool graduation. Since yesterday, I have really thought about the significance of the dreams I wrote about on Jan. 13, 2008. It has given me such comfort to know Gracie was still in Heaven and aware of the events....her plan. The fact that the child I thought would die was 2 months away from their 4th birthday. I thought I was seeing Izsak in my dream but really it was Gracie. She was showing me that she would come to this family and die at the age Izsak was when I had the dream. The significance of her accident being on Grandma Viola's birthday is just too.....I can't think of the word. I just know now she was aware of what was going to happen when she came to this life and Heavenly Father had been preparing me along the way. It doesn't make me miss her less but it eases the pain a little.
At the Graduation they had a tree in her place. I couldn't help but wonder if she's looking down wishing she could have been there or if she had planned it this way? Did she and Grandma Vi plan that she (Vi) would come get Gracie on Vi's birthday? Did Gracie not realize how much she would want to have celebrated her birthday at preschool or attend graduation? Is that why I'm so adamant these things are taken care of and that I'm there? I'm sure she was aware of her plan before coming to this earth...that comforts me. She was destined to leave this earth at this time. I miss Gracie so much it hurts more than I could even imagine hurting but at the same time I have strength. I can't wait to see Gracie; to hold her, kiss her, hug her, again....and again....and again.
How sad that everyone goes for ice-cream or dinner after the graduation and we go to Gracie's grave.
After getting home that night and getting everyone settled I was so incredibly sad. The events and emotions of the day finally caught up with me and I was alone to feel the devastation fully. I cried and cried the rest of the night until I cried myself to sleep.
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