April 25, 2013 Please Continue the Comfort

I posted the following to FB April 25, 2013:

I have the most amazing support in the world. We pray to be comforted and that comfort is given to me daily through messages from my friends and family. Thank you for sharing your grief and allowing me to share mine:)

I wanted people to continue to feel comforted and I wanted to continue to feel peace and loved.  I still feared the shock would wear off and everyone would be able to return to their lives but I would be left alone. I thought the more people knew, the more support, something would make this all go away.  I realized early on though that I had to stay positive because people don't tolerate misery for long and I didn't want all these people who were supporting me now to eventually retreat.  I was feeling sad but still feeling such comfort and peace....that's what makes it hard to process "This is Real".