Oct. 17, 2013 Our Guardian Angel

Oct. 17, 2013 FB: I was on the phone with my dad last night and went to get a pair of pajamas for Vi.  I handed them to Jeremy and continued my conversation.  A minute later he was standing in front of me hold them up.  They were Gracie's:(.  I placed them back in Gracie's pajama drawer and took a minute to admire how she had put the contents of the drawer away....with speed as it was always a race:) My heart is hurting this morning.  I want to be getting her dressed and plan our fun fall break.

Oct. 17, 2013 Journal Entry:  Two weekends ago we went to Kari's family's cabin at Bear Lake.  I was excited to go with the Thompson's and Andersens so the kids could play and we didn't have to be home for conference.  Conference will forever mark the 6 month or another year for us.

I've really struggled with the idea of promptings.  Why wasn't I prompted that day?  Was I just not listening?  This question was answered as we drove up to Bear Lake later Friday evening.  It was getting dark and as we drove through Logan there was no sunlight left.We started into the canyon and a deer darted across the road.  I hit the breaks and it went on it's way.  As we continued, Jeremy asked (for the 3rd time) if I wanted him to drive.  I strongly felt I should drive even though my eyes were a little tired and I'm not as smooth as he is driving through the canyon.  With the radio off and kids quiet I thought Jeremy said something .  I turned and said, "What?".  He started to laugh and replied, "I didn't say anything."  I had distinctly heard someone say, "Sloooww."  I didn't say anything but I slowed down a bit.  I started thinking about the dam to the right of us with little easement to prevent us from going in should I slide off the road.  How would we all get out?  How would we get Vi out of her seat?  I started to realize how ridiculous I was being when a large, jacked up truck came barreling down the canyon, rounded the corner and came at us head on.  I saw a small patch of asphalt off to my right and swerved into it.  It just happened to be the entrance (placed exactly where we needed it) to the campground by the dam.  Had we been any farther up the canyon the truck would've t-boned us into the water.  I know it was angels-our angel Gracie-watching over us.  The voice was masculine for sure but I know it was a prompting from above.  I didn't have any promptings the day of Gracie's accident because I wasn't meant to stop it.  As hard as that is.  If God had intended a different outcome I know I would've heard any prompting given.  I'm so sad that we have to live our lives without Gracie but so glad to know she is still with us, that God is watching over and is aware of us...that I can keep my family safe when I listen to the Spirit.

As a tribute to 6 months, our neighbors replaced the ribbons from 6 months ago with new ones in our neighborhood.  It was a bit of a shock at first but we appreciated the support so much.  It helps that people remember and talk about Gracie rather than try to ignore because they think it will be too hard for us to talk about or even too upsetting.  I want to know people share my grief....that is support.  With the ribbons, they left a big pink pumpkin with "Gracie" in big white letters on our doorstep.  I LOVE IT!!  Jeremy had a dream (only his 2nd) that Gracie was sitting on her pumpkin waving as us.  I'm positive she loves her pumpkin.  I miss her so much.